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A Fresh Start

I won’t bore you with all the details, so I’ll skip ahead to my current situation, but to give some sense of time, I’ll start with this.

For roughly seven years, I’ve been trying to answer the question of what I want to do as a career. For a long time my dream was to be a full-time musician, but to get to the point where I could consistently make a living solely from my music realistically could take five, ten, or even fifteen years. Even after all that time there’s still no guarantee of where I would be financially. As a husband and hopefully a father some day, I can’t justify giving that much time to an unsure endeavor. That’s not fair to my wife, and I’m not loving her well by putting the pressure on her to provide financially in the real world while I play around all day in dream land.

let me make a brief aside. I don’t want this to discourage my friends who are pursuing their dreams of being a full-time musician or artist. I know many people who are making their dreams a reality. Be encouraged to press on if your situation allows or even calls for it. Everyone’s circumstances, personalities, ambitions, relationships, and a multitude of other factors are different.

With all that being said, I’ve decided to stop pursuing music as a full-time career, but I’ll never stop making music and sharing it with people.

I have other interests, so who knows, maybe a new dream with start to unfold for me. Hopefully it will continue to unfold as I begin the next chapter in my life. That next chapter is to go back to school. I’ll be going to Ivy Tech in the Fall. I haven’t decided on my specific focus at this time. It will either be motorsports technology or a general automotive route.

Some of you know I’ve been into motorcycles pretty heavily for the past year, but their are roots that go further back than that. My dad has been a high school teacher for the past 42 years. As technology has changed he’s taught things like drafting, wood shop, small engines, design processes, Autocad, robotics, and many others. I’ve been surrounded by this man and these things my whole life. In junior high and high school, my dad and I would watch the show “American Chopper.” We both loved to see the bikes go from concept to design to mock up to final assembly. I’ve always wanted to learn more about cars and what’s going on under the hood, but never really had the drive to take the time to learn. At the time, I was focused on my visual art and my music, since that’s what I wanted to do as a career.

I’m excited to finally learn about something I’ve admired from afar for so many years. I’m excited to find a career and not just another job to pay the bills. I can’t say for sure, but I don’t think I’ve ever been this excited about school.

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25 Years. 25 Things

25 things about myself/ life in my 25 years

1. I need others.

2. Question asking is an art.

3. I am like no one else, but at the same time…

4. … Just because things manifest differently doesn’t mean we aren’t the same.

5. Intimacy is scary, but…

6. … I long to be known.

7. Honesty is very important to me

8. Love is a mystery… Except when it comes to loving myself.

9. I’ve had a pretty easy life thus far.

10. Listen, think, be patient, and be gracious.

11. Everyone has a story, and it’s worth listening to.

12. Nowadays I think I have more doubts than assurances… I could be wrong.

13. I tweak everything slightly to make something my own. Maybe it stems from a rebellious  standpoint. Maybe it’s because I’m a perfectionist at times, and I think everything can be improved. Maybe it’s because I like to create systems and structures that make sense to me.

14. I just said I’m a perfectionist at times…

15. … and I like to create systems and structures.

16. I express myself through music and lyrics not through visual art…

17. … even though I was an Animation major in college.

18. We all worship something.

19. I appreciate when women don’t wear makeup.

20. I would like to think I’m a pretty good lyricist, but I sucked at writing papers in high school and college.

21. I have high closure needs, so no matter how hard it is to finish this list I will finish it one way or another.

22. I can be pretty gullible. When I talk with someone, I believe they are telling me the truth. Maybe I’m a little too trusting of others.

23. I’m very introverted. This doesn’t mean I don’t like people though…

24. … I just prefer one-on-one interactions.

25. And the coup de grace… Never think you’ve arrived. There is always something to grow in, to learn, to get better at, etc. Keep being a student in life.

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